The Soundtrack to me

I recently gave my soul partner "homework"......what movie and songs speak to you....she shared with me her personal and wonderful answers..wanna know what they are?  nope not sharing..... thats for me.

I am sharing with her through here mine. 

Movie

I have given this soo much thought.  Part of me really wishes it was Say Anything, Serendipity, or Hi Fidelity....in so many ways i am Cusack or at least the characters he potrays.

Buy my movie is Fight Club.  Watch it again, strip out the violence and mayhem..and whats left? Outsiders who dont fit the mould of society and are searching for somewhere they are accepted. 

The funny thing is the line in the movie that most speaks to how i feel alot of the time is spoken by the only woman character and the object that it compares me to..... a dress

Marla Singer: I got this dress at a thrift store for one dollar.
Narrator: It was worth every penny.
Marla Singer: It's a bridesmaid's dress. Someone loved it intensely for one day, and then tossed it. Like a Christmas tree. So special. Then, bam, it's on the side of the road.

and the most quotable characters in a movie in my lifetime who speaks to me...Tyler Durden

My views on people being obsessed with possesions and status symbols

Tyler Durden: Do you know what a duvet is?
Narrator: It's a comforter...
Tyler Durden: It's a blanket. Just a blanket. Now why do guys like you and me know what a duvet is? Is this essential to our survival, in the hunter-gatherer sense of the word? No. What are we then?
Narrator: ...Consumers?
Tyler Durden: Right. We are consumers. We're the bi-products of a lifestyle obsession.  Murder, crime, poverty, these things don't concern me. What concerns me are celebrity magazines, television with 500 channels, some guy's name on my underwear. Rogaine, Viagra, Olestra.
Narrator: Martha Stewart.
Tyler Durden: Fuck Martha Stewart. Martha's polishing the brass on the Titanic. It's all going down, man. So fuck off with your sofa units and Strinne green stripe patterns.   I say never be complete, I say stop being perfect, I say let... lets evolve, let the chips fall where they may.
Tyler Durden: You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world.
Tyler Durden: The things you own end up owning you.
about getting through difficult times:

Tyler Durden: Only after disaster can we be resurrected.
Tyler Durden: It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.

about being myself and not playing a role

Tyler Durden: Sticking feathers up your butt does not make you a chicken.

even the "warning" at the start of the film....

Tyler Durden: Warning: If you are reading this then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this useless fine print is another second off your life. Don't you have other things to do? Is your life so empty that you honestly can't think of a better way to spend these moments? Or are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all that claim it? Do you read everything you're supposed to read? Do you think every thing you're supposed to think? Buy what you're told to want? Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove you're alive. If you don't claim your humanity you will become a statistic. You have been warned- Tyler.
And finally this one just speaks to the way, i feel like an outsider, like im not lving the life the way im supposed to according to some plan, like im not normal, i dont fit in...

Tyler Durden: Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off.



My Song

Music speaks to me more than anything else.....I have theme songs to different parts of my life.  music speaks to me more than anything else....  Certain songs or lines in a song have defined certain moments in my life....  This part of Monkey Wrench helped me through a difficult time a few months ago...

One last thing before I quit
I never wanted any more than I could fit
Into my head I still remember every single word
You said and all the shit that somehow came along with it
Still there's one thing that comforts me since I was
Always caged and now I'm free

Don't want to be your monkey wrench
One more indecent accident
I'd rather leave than suffer this
I'll never be your monkey wrench

Other songs have touched me....some for a moment in time, some for my whole lives...but if i had to pick one song that always defines what i feel, want, am....it would be this....thought of including the live version from wembley, but the lyrics get lost in it....am a fan of the band, but never a huge fan...just this one song is me....